So we've all made mistakes, right? For the last three days, I've been having frequent anxiety attacks and haven't been myself. I've insulted friends, I've been slightly suicidal, and I've driven my friend away about 2 hours ago by not being willing to move on. I haven't been able to tell her what I'm going through, and I told her I wanted to hurt myself. I've been permanently banned on a wiki for threatening to shut it down by talking to community central, and/or getting certain admins who were not being fair to me having their powers taken away.

As I realize my mistakes, I'm back on full anxiety meds and I'm trying to relax. How should I make things right as I'm starting to come to my senses? I don't want to keep begging to come back to the wiki, I've moved on from that. I plan on waiting a few weeks before attempting contact with my friend again on wikia, though she blocked me on Facebook. After I decide to try and talk to her again, how should I set things right?