Life as now.
Well as of now my life is pretty much all over the place, like it was going a little ok for a while then out of no where it went down hill. The love of my life who hurt me over a year ago comes into my life and leaves a lot, I know he will never love me back but I can't let go. I fell in love with someone he pretended to be and I just don't know why I still want him. He only calls, text, and snapchats me when he wants something, I always think to myself "Why me?" or "What did I do to deserve this?". I don't understand what lesson god is trying to show me by hurting me constantly. None of this is making me stronger it is only hurting me more and more each and every day. I've always tried to move on I would date someone and I'd be happy for …