I am gay I have figured that out now I don't like guys the way I like girls. Remember I talked about loving a boy it wasn't love I'm sure of that now. I remember how my belly tickled when I met the girl I was and still are in love with. But when I talked to the guy I thought I was in love with I got anxious. And I got anxious all the time I weren't talking to him afraid what he would think of me or of what would happen between us. So my resolution is that I am gay I like girls not guys.